That I laugh easily and heartily, i love smiling, sometimes I can be a smartass, love to be out in the open in comparision to being at home, but sometimes the opposite is also true, but most of all I am hopefull and a true romantic. Dreams, hope, possibilities are my key words..... but now it looks like it is changing. Its quite amzing how 3 years of women's rights work did not make me bitter, but the past 8 to 9 months have! I dont really know what this is going to lead to, but I just know that I don't wnat to change my basic core as a person. Tell me someone, will my happy, hopeful, positive self actually go away, is this really called maturing and becoming worldly wise? I really don't want it to happen, but sadly I can see that it is!
2008 is the year which showed me financial well being, I felt like I was being rewarded for all the hard work I did, but it is also the year that shattered my heart, like Nidhu says there is this knot in my heart which tightens up when I am reminded or I think of the way this year went, and it does'nt look like this knot is going to loosen up ever. It is now that I can say that I know what it means to be alone in a crowd....... anyways, this will pass too and I will see better days or just different days when I can start dreaming about the future again.
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my dear anubha,
i think this song answers all your questions....
When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here's what she said to me.
Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.
When I was young, I fell in love
I asked my sweetheart what lies ahead
Will we have rainbows, day after day
Here's what my sweetheart said.
Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.
Now I have children of my own
They ask their mother, what will I be
Will I be handsome, will I be rich
I tell them tenderly.
Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.
always remember true test of time is not in changing but in becomning a better person. if by your current experiences you are becoming a better person, then by all means go for it, but if you feel that your good qualities are being washed away.....fight that with all your might....
suchi
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