Yay Yay!!!

Suchi is back, Aatreyee is in town, I spoke to Nidhu this afternoon, J made yummy baingan last nit!!! Now all i need is maa, manna, gouri and bulki and then I will be just fine..... hey looks like life is already getting better!!!! of course my boss told me this morning 'yeh koi time hai office aane ka???', boohoo!

What do I know about myself?

That I laugh easily and heartily, i love smiling, sometimes I can be a smartass, love to be out in the open in comparision to being at home, but sometimes the opposite is also true, but most of all I am hopefull and a true romantic. Dreams, hope, possibilities are my key words..... but now it looks like it is changing. Its quite amzing how 3 years of women's rights work did not make me bitter, but the past 8 to 9 months have! I dont really know what this is going to lead to, but I just know that I don't wnat to change my basic core as a person. Tell me someone, will my happy, hopeful, positive self actually go away, is this really called maturing and becoming worldly wise? I really don't want it to happen, but sadly I can see that it is!
2008 is the year which showed me financial well being, I felt like I was being rewarded for all the hard work I did, but it is also the year that shattered my heart, like Nidhu says there is this knot in my heart which tightens up when I am reminded or I think of the way this year went, and it does'nt look like this knot is going to loosen up ever. It is now that I can say that I know what it means to be alone in a crowd....... anyways, this will pass too and I will see better days or just different days when I can start dreaming about the future again.

Im Losing it

I have spent almost 9 months in htis workplace and I am going quite crazy... I know the right thing to do is to be patient, save the easy earned money, relax, enjoy blah blah blah blah but you know what, I have had just about enough, I am sick and I am tired of being useless and getting paid for it. I know a number of people would love to trade jobs with me, you know what, be my guest!!!!!!! Its ok. I am done, I have had enough. It is looking so difficult for me to now atleast finish a year here, but since that is the prudent, practical, sensible, smart thing to do..... I am going to do it!!!! Its like there is atest going on in my life, personal front also is identical to the professionsl front.......gaaaaahhhhhh I am seriously losing it, help please, mommmyyyyyyy

Another day passes

Long long time

I haven't written in a long long time!!! and now i dont know what to write, such is life..... bloody!