White Flag: Dido

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it well I'd still have felt it,where's the sense in that
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder Or return to where we were but

I will go down with this ship and
I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble, I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over" then I'm sure that that makes sense but

I will go down with this ship and
I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet, which I'm sure we will
All that was there, will be there still
I'll let it pass, and hold my tongue
And you will think, that I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship and
I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship and
I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship and
I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

I am aware...

of every nerve and muscle in my body, because every single of those nerves and muscles are screaming for attention..... no this is not the result of love or any related activity.....! This is the result of my supe khadus gym instructor! He obviously thinks I am some kind of juvenile jumping around in the gym, I think I will have to remind him at some stage that I am 29, lawyer and refuse to get bullied into running up and down the staircase 20,000 times!!

Conversations to be noted

He: This friend who has been married for quite sometime called me and said that his marriage is not working out fine and maybe they are heading for divorce
Me: Ok
He: You know, i told him, whatever it is, is totally your fault
Me: Ok
He: But you know, even though they both are working, his wife does not do any housework... like he literally has to wash her clothes too
Me: SOOO?
He: I mean can you believe it, he has to wash the clothes, she does not wash them!
Me: (trying not to break this man's neck!) Well women have washed men's clothes for centuries, if one man is washing his wife's clothes, what on earth is the big deal??
He: Oh shit, I forgot who I was speaking with!!
Me: Anyways, why can't they buy a washing machine or get domestic help?
He: No no they have a washing machine, he has to wash the clothes in the washing machine
Me: @*%$#%% (and walk away without causing any physical damage)

News Today

I have stopped reading the newspaper in print, mostly because the paper would not reach me every morning and that irritate the hell out of me, so i decided to opt out. I now read the newspaper online. Today the front page consists of the Nanavati commission, the UC Banerjee Commission, the Liberhan Commission, the banglore explosion.... and I havent even finished reading the front page.
Frankly I don't even remember anymore the chronology of blasts and terrorist attacks that have taken place. I don't know whether this is because there are too many of them or because I just wnt to shut my mind out from these happenings... I don't know what we are going to do about this situation and what worries me even more is that we refuse to deal with the root cause of all this terror.. we have judges saying that we should have strict terror laws this that, but really are people born terrorists? or they become terrorists? I mean are we going to deal with what exactly happens that drives a normal human being to be ready to shoot people and get burnt alive absolutely willingly?
I was in a seminar on Human Rights in Nanital once and after most poeple had spoken, the audience was also sharing their thoughts. One of the members came up and advocated for a stronger anti terror law and death penalty and no need for a trial etc for 'terrorists' to which i again spoke up about death penalty and why the concept itself is against human rights. In response to this I had a High Court judge turn around and say that if he ever had the chance he would without doubt sentence a 'terrorist' to death penalty without a second thought. When i replied back about how easily the State was washing its hands off by not dealing with the circumstances which make people so called terrorists, all the high Court judge could say was that all this study for the purposes of criminology can be done at a later stage, but right now stroang action is required....
Don't really know what we are heading for!

Looong Weekend!!

Last week I had a longish weekend (4 days actually...heehee!!) So Friday night movie happened.. I saw Luck By Chance, nice, I liked it quite a bit and I think I am falling in love with Farhan Akhtar. Only in the movie his character is a capricon as he reveals during the movie, but me thinks his character is very very sagitarian: you know witty, smart ass, charming to the core, opportunist and selfish, and really sagis u really cant do anything about it, some people are like this only. Anyways, Saturday was spent in previous office writing a proposal which I knew would be re written considering the reputation of my previous boss. I went shopping to Dilli Haat on Saturday, that was fun. I finally bought some silver earrings, very nice hep danglers. The overall atmosphere was fun and colourfull, had fun. Since I had gone with Aanchal, so a lot of Ruia and its people were discussed.
Late night was disturbed by a nocturnal bird, tried to shoo the bird away, but then saw some sense and let the bird stay....(don't know for how long I will see this 'sense' though!). Saw Slumdog millionaire till early morn, like this movie too, will write a separate post about the movie considering all the hallagulla around it.
Sunday morning Miss Sunshine read J was back home, early morning was spent giving and getting an update! Missed her quite a bit. Spent the Sunday indoors, finishing some arbit work here and there, saw a stupid movie 'harold and kumar' mopped around since sunday was getting obher and fell asleep.
Now come monday morn and I was'nt feeling too great, decided to stay at home and chill and finish some pending work. J also came back home quite early, I spent the evening in previous office and that was that.
Tuesday morning, I am all ready to leave for office and have even finished packing my lunch when I casually say to J that I don't feel like going to office today, J voices similar feelings and we both decide to take the day off and go shopping, which we did. I saw Luck by chance again yesterday, and really I liked it quite a bit. Went oveboard shopping, got totally obsessive about purchasing a chair, did'nt get around buying one though (that's on agenda for today!) and highlight of the day, went and joined the gym J goes to. She has lost quite a bit of weight so I too got inspired. Actually when you shopping for clothes this is one of the side efffects, so I decided to cash on this side effect and paid up for 3 months. After that I bought shoes for the gym and this morning I spent an hour working my butt off in the gym... thank you thank you!!!

The best part yet: 2 more days to go and it is weekend ..again!! yippeeeee

Weekend Couples

I met a very interesting peson on my bus ride to shimla. No, it wasn't a nice guy, my knight in shining armour, so please women stop jumping around in excitment!!! It was this nice looking girl who was standing alone next to the bus with a bag in he hand. I had reached the bus stoip at around 7.10 and was waiting for my luggage alongwith publications to turn up. People who have been part of HRLN or my life in HRLN would know what I mean when i say publications!! SO we both were standing next to each other and we got talking. She looked like she was just out of college or had just begun her career except for the tiny hint of mangalsutra that i could see peeping out of her jacket. So in the conversation I asked her her reason for travel as she asked me and she said that her husband was in Shimla... she had gotten married just the last month and after her chutti got over they both had to go back to their respective work places adn therefore she was in Delhi and he was in Shimla, posted in the Army. She travels like this every friday evening and reaches shimla Saturday morning, spends the weekend in shimla and takes a bus back to delhi on sunday night and reaches Monday morning. Luckily for her, her workplace is ok with her working in 12 to 9 shifts during the week till thursday and then on friday she works from 7 to 4 so that she can get eady for the bus journey.
I was just wondering, right now I get a little bit unhapppy with the fact that all the things Im doing right now are not going to be very long lasting and therefore I dont know if I want to invest all my energy in it, the solution that comes up in my mind is that once I settle in my personal life, which will most likely be a marriage (coz even if i dont like it, i am a bit traditional!!) then things will be fine. But looking at this weekend couple I was just wondering how it would be!! coz even though it was a arranged match, she sounded like she was quite fond of the guy and that so was he.... so it must be so frustating that you can't be with each other for the entire week and then to be with each other one has to travel to the other, so you dont have that feeling of being settled at home, where you have the weekend to put your life in order.... for example she said that even if she has to buy stuff for her home she does it in Shimla coz she does'nt have the time in Delhi!
I then realised that I do know a number of couples like this and although it gives me a sense of the changing mindsets quo women's professional careers, I dont really know if I would be ok being a weekend couple... what say you?

Weekend

Hello all, This weekend I was in Shimla for a judges training on the PCPNDT Act (the law in India that regulates the use of ultrasound technology and prohibites selection of sex of the foetus). Will write about this law and all related stuff at a later stage!!
My colleauge Ritu and i had qualified for the duet singing competition finals which took place on friday in a far away office of my company in Noida. So i was quite worried about reaching for my bus to Shimla in time. I was taking a Volvo from Himachal Bhavan. Anyways I reached well in time and was waiting for my luggage and stuff to appear. The bus journey was quite peaceful, I slept quite well and eached coooolllllllddddd Shimla at 6 in the morning. The training was to begin at 9 so I had some time to rest and get ready.
Anyways the training went as usual. This was the last in the series for Himachal and I had kind of gotten used to the reactions that the judges give to a law like this and how the easiest solution that they can give is to curb legal abortions or track pregnancies, basically run around and follow the pregnant woman even to the loo but don't even touch the doctor who does the stuff and is actually the offender. It is amazing the number of times the doctors give the argument of demand and supply, because there is a demand they justify the violation of the law!! Its like saying that because there is a demand for sex, rape is justified!
As usual we were able to wake up the sleeping participants from their deep slumber at least for a bit... hmmm
The weather was lovely, but frankly after having seen palampur, dharamshala and kullu manali I thought Shimla was just ok. The best I liked was palampur, totally untouched and the snow capped peaks are right in your face, it is sooo lovely there! We went out in the evening to the Mall road, there was nothing to buy as the road was full of branded shops, we had some nice himachali food and headed back to HIPA (Himachal Institute of Public Administration) where we were staying. The next day we left in the afternoon to catch our train from Kalka and obviously on the way i stopped and bought fruit wine. The last time I had got a variety of flavours. This time i bought on plum wine, ummmm it is so lovely!! Now i am waiting for opportunities to beak into the case of wine....yummmmm!!

All in all it was an alright trip, now major work will take place as a follow up to the training... lets see where this goes:-)

I'm back

Hello Hello, Happy New Year!! Well went home for chutti, played with crazy and completely cute nephew, ate some of the stuff that i wanted to, sang at a karaoke!! and all that. We have a talent competition going on in our office. Yesterday was the singing competition, so obviously i took part, although i have'nt sang on stage for donkeys years now, but what the heck!! It was a lot of fun, I sang (very vey contrary to my image!!) Bade Ache Lagtey hain from the movie Balika Badhu and with another colleague I sang Hum Toh Aise hain Bhaiya from the movie Laga Chunari main Daag and thoroughly enjoyed myself!. My colleague Ritu sang this lovely song in he absoulutely amazing voice, so much so that this morning it is still resonating in my mind!! Oh it was just lovely, I have googled the lyrics and put them down, enjoy!!!
Hindi Song: Roz Roz Aankhon Tale
Movie or Album: Jeeva
Singer(s): Asha Bhosle, Amit Kumar
Roz Roz Aankhon Tale Ek Hi Sapna Chale
Raat Bhar Kaajal Jale, Aankh Mein Jis Tarah
khwaab Ka Diya Jaale
Jabse Tumhari Naam Ki Misri Honth Lagayi Hai
meetha Sa Gham Hai Aur Meethi Si Tanhaai Hai
roz Roz Aankhon Tale ...
chhotisi Dil Ki Uljhan Hai Yeh Suljhaa Do Tum
jeena To Seekha Hai Marke, Marna Sikha Do Tum
roz Roz Aankhon Tale...